What do you want in life?

How do you figure out what you want in life? Where do you
even start to think about a topic wide as this? Is it what I
want to do, to make money? What kind of person I want to
be? What I want materially? What I want spiritually,
emotionally?

Maybe I should start small. How about, what do I want to eat
now? Two ice creams and a beer! Heh, too small I guess. How
about, what bike do I want to buy? I already do have one,
and a fairly good one at that. But, its not enough, I
already have my eyes on another! A car doesn't seem to be
enough either!

Is it good to want? Perhaps, yes, it drives us to achieve. I
work hard to make money, so that I can then buy that cool
iPod I saw the other day! But to what end? A month or two
later, I'll want the xPod which comes with a 20" screen, 5
million gigs of space (to store that enormous collection of
illegal mp3s! ;), and comes with its own butler who'll
operate the thing for u! But, still we are 'wanting' at the
end of it - for something bigger, better, sexier. We stand
everyday, in front of those large glass windows, staring at
that object of our desire, which is right there, we can see
it, but cant touch it. And then the day comes when we can
walk in and buy it! Its ours finally! Life is good. And for
a few days we are satisfied and happy, we are now in
possession what we wanted! But, soon the feeling comes
back, there is always something better, isnt there? And
soon, you find that there is another shop inside, and
another large glass window, in front of which we now stand
and drool, waiting to buy that new zPod which comes with 5
clowns and 3 super-models 'free'!

Life seems like it is nothing more than a series of 'wants',
and an endless striving to get that which we want, only to
find soon after getting it, that it was not really what we
wanted, perhaps what we wanted back then, but not now,
things are different now. Is there really a way to be
satisfied? I wanted a car, now we got one, but now I find
that it is not big enough, its not cool enough, I want a
bigger car now. Is there an end to this endless want?

Perhaps what is required is to be able to distinguish what
we really need and what we dont. But, how am I to judge
that? I'm biased! I think perhaps I really need a new
cellphone (a new and powerful one, so that I can play games,
click photos, keep reminders, browse the 'net) - u just give
it a little time, and the monkey can come up with a good
excuse to get anything.

What are we essentially looking for? Happiness, I would
think. Everything else, money, fame, etc are all
essentially things that allow us to reach that. Happiness
is achieved when we are satisfied - when we possess that
which we had wanted. But, we well know, that we really cant
have everything that we want. If it is somehow possible to
squash this endless cycle of 'want', could we not achieve
timeless happiness? Is that even possible - has anyone
managed that? It sure looks like the majority of people
certainly havent.

"Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs
we hate so we can buy shit we don't need." - Tyler Durden

So, at the end of all this rambling, where am I with regard
to my first question? What do I want in life?

I want EVERYTHING goddammit! I want a porsche, I want a
ferrari, I want every supercar ever made, I want to ride
every bike, screw every super-model and kill every
politician!! Isnt that where I'm being led? Always appearing
to get closer to that ever-changing pot at the end of the
rainbow, but always out of reach. Is it then possible, in
the face of this seething, writhing, beautiful, seductive
wall of 'want', to want absoutely nothing?